On My 54th Birthday

Good Morning Wankers (or whatever fookin time it happens to be when you see this)!






This spinnin' blue ball has circled the gaseous blob we call the SUN (Or, SOL if ya wanna get all technical aboot it) - Fifty Four Times since 5:30am on May 20th, 1957... The year I was dredged out by forceps from me mum's womb. I don't remember any of that, probably cos being born is a traumatic experience and my particular birth was traumatic for my mum and my miserable self.

So first, I wanna thank any of you scrodsuckers who may have wished me a happy birthday over there in Faceschnook land... I'm still not there, but I'm telling Blogger.com to x/post this over to my page on that joint.

Tonight, Pharmacy is beginning a new chapter with our new bass player "Ramone Ramones", so now the lineup is as follows:

Kitten - Vocals and Meows
Jonny Spit - Guitars and Vocals and Catfights
Ramone Ramones - Bass (and hopefully, Vocals too).
Jayden Neckred - Drums

So Pharmacy now, has an even Wider AGE-GAP! Ramone Ramones, at 21, is the youngest new member, Jayden in his Mid 30's but still in good shape, Kitten late **'s (I'm not at liberty to state Kitten's Age, ya know, age of a woman? Carefully guarded Secret?) - And myself at 54, well it should not work but it DOES! So after we learn all of our old songs, it's NEW SONG TIME! Yay! And it's "Out with the Young and In with the Younger!"

And I posted a link to our song "Misery", which we recor-dead in Kitten's Garage last February, this is a new mix done on Social Spit Drummer Javier's Sweetwater Creation Machine system, which is an AviDigidesign Digirack 003 - Javy and I have been spending a lot of time getting aquianted with it, it's COOL! This is mostly what's been goin on for the last 3 weeks, plus Social Spit practice, getting ready for our May 21st Plum Loco show with Systematic Abuse, Looking WAY forward to doing that show!





So if you Fookers do not show up, next time I see ya it's my size 12 Steel Toed Doc Marten's to be applied to your buttocks!

You'll be a walkin, WANKIN, and HURTIN advertisement for Doc Martens Boots!!

Now for the trivia:

Most of you, don't know that my cat Ming, after guzzling a cup of hot Chocolate, then proceeded to immediately vomit it up all over my old iPhone... About a month, maybe 5 weeks ago. Her timing was impeccable: She did this this on the one-and-only day I ever took the phone out of the protective cover!

Well, thanks to my brother and my sister in law, they sent me her old original iPhone which was just like mine. When I tried to restore my backup to the new iPhone, it would not finish the activation process! Mainly because, I found out, to my dismay and the dismay of about every original iPhone 2G owner in the world: You ABSOLUTELY CANNOT activate the 2G iPhone through iTunes any longer! Because ATT no longer supports the network that those original now-paperweights used! I tried about 3 times on as many 'puters, activation would stall. I brought it to the ATT store, and they gave me a new Sim Card, and it still would not activate! So the ATT guy told me to bring it to "A to Z Mobile" over there in Pukeway Plaza... The idea was, once I got the phone Jailbroken, it would activate - And it DID! So I've been playing with "Cydia" which is the Linux program that was in there after it got Jailbroken - Some of the linux packages in there are scary!

My Brother bought me a brand NEW 4G iPhone for my birthday, so I'm very pleased about that! Many thanks to my Brother Chris and his wife Merri: By the way: Not going to go into details, but to all my friends who have a measure of Faith, PLEASE Pray for my sister-in-law! She just needs a break from some pain. Other than that, my work has picked up quite a bit, I'm very pleased about that. So all is well, "24th century dies".

Wellll, I feel like I wanna give out a few hearty "Fuck Yous" but I really don't got nobody to give a "Fuck You" out to, at least not anyone of importance... I'm sure that some people wanna tell ME to piss off or fuck off, so DO it and get it over with! Willya? Eh.

Look I'll make ya a deal: Just so none of you will "Think" or "Assume" or better yet "PREsume" that I told them to "Fuck Off"? - I'll make it easy for ya... If I am telling you to "Fuck Off", I'll say it using your NAME to your FACE - So there will be NO Question I did it, see? Haha! If I wanted to tell you to "Fook Off", you will KNOW I said it and you'll KNOW I meant +YOU+. But like I just sed: "There ain't nobody I'm telling FUK AUF BITCH* to rite now".

( * )= iacmusic.com/FUKAUFBEYITCH

(This in contrast to Cliff gettin up on a Mike at a recent "Meatwagon" show at the Shakedown, and saying that "Anyone not likeing Meatwagon's 'The Sreve Garris Story' can fook off!" - I don't THINK, and in fact I KNOW he did NOT direct that out to anyone in particular... But what the hey? He's been marked GUILTY of telling someone to "Fook Auf!". Tsk, too bad!)

Most of this shite is none of anyone's business none of mine either... None of youse guy's beezwax is any of MINE. Sometimes we like to Co-Miserate, which is usually and actually a means for people to stock up on Emotional Ammo that can be used against each other later. I never do that, used to do it all the time but I stopped, cos it is a bad thing to do. Comprende?. Mostly, my beefs don't have anything to do with anyone HERE. and anything else has to do with that other Blog I posted "About the keeping of PROMISES". I kept mine, but promises made to me were never fulfilled, so I feel I am owed that, even if it is "just a night with lingerie" - And I want to make it Clear: I was Promised a "Night with Lingerie" if I were able to do a special computer job for someone, and I VERY MUCH wanted to do that, the "reward" factor is not important, but I took the offer seriously, and I was dissapointed that it was not apparently a valid offer. I think the one who promised that to me needs a spanking of some sort, for making gratuitious promises without intent of going through with them. :/ But one of these days, they will understand why this thing they did was as bad as any thing I ever did, and there was only one really bad thing I ever did, which I tried to fix immediately.

The one piece of advice I will give to anyone: Is stay TRUE to yourself - Do NOT let anyone try to CHANGE you to fit rheir image of what they think you should be. FUCK that. Moreover, do not let anybody try to make you, into a carbon copy cut-out of their deepest desires... perfect to them, worthless to you.

There are more scenarios to which this applies and not just with me, I'm sure all of you have gone through things like this. What I posted here, that was my scenario and I WILL not go in to a bunch of Name Calling and Finger Pointing, because I am not really angry, I am merely sad and depressed about this. Somebody did not like that I was playing with Pharmacy, and tried to influence me to Quit - But when it comes right down to is, I am a MUSICIAN, and Musicians MUST play MUSIC, and I don't care if anyone likes it really, ultimately I'd like people to enjoy the music I write and play for them, but if they honestly do not like it, if they told that to me it would not hurt me. So that the person did not like that band, did not bother me too much, I wanted to share all of my music with this person, and I did not continue to try to involve them with Pharmacy after I learned that they did not like them.

If any friends of yours, or a any person you are in a close realtionship with, tries to get you to QUIT doing something you love doing, if that thing is not harmful, unless it is harmful and you NEED to quit that thing - It is not just music, it could be anything. It can be anything else you LOVE doing - And if someone is strenuously trying to get you to quit that thing, then It is probabaly better to drop that person, remove them from your life like "Fleas from a Dog", because you will NOT be happy if you try to kow-tow to another person's EVERY whim, and they will not be happy either, it just causes a Self-Starting-Co-Miseration-Situation, a "Misery-Loop" which is a type of "Pete" and "Re-Peat", where the misery was a response to exterior bad circumstances, now is a self perpetuationg load of Bollox making everybody and especially the person who will not capitulate and finally DROP the subject, miserable... Until they finally and inevitably LET GO of the external event that caused the misery in the first place.

So unless they wanna try to FIX what was Broke, don't wanna see 'em. But if they wanna work with me to fix what's broke I'll drop everything and do it.. Because I believe it is VERY much worth fixing... Otherwise, I just don't care anymore.

So other than that small "Sergio Aragonez" style drawn-out-Drama, everybody Happy Nowadays! Social Spit, Plum Loco El Cajon, about 10:30pm, May 21st! 1678 Greenfield Drive!

5-20-2011

On Spirituality

I have my Spiritual beliefs, basically rooted in the basic Judeo-Christan vein. I'll have to think of a better word for it. The best way to explain it, is the Nicene Creed:

We believe in one God, the Father Almighty, Maker of all things visible and invisible.

And in one Lord Jesus Christ, the Son of God, begotten of the Father [the only-begotten; that is, of the essence of the Father, God of God], Light of Light, very God of very God, begotten, not made, being of one substance with the Father;
By whom all things were made [both in heaven and on earth];
Who for us men, and for our salvation, came down and was incarnate and was made man;
He suffered, and the third day he rose again, ascended into heaven;
From thence he shall come to judge the quick and the dead.

And in the Holy Ghost.

[But those who say: 'There was a time when he was not;' and 'He was not before he was made;' and 'He was made out of nothing,' or 'He is of another substance' or 'essence,' or 'The Son of God is created,' or 'changeable,' or 'alterable'—they are condemned by the holy catholic and apostolic Church.]

I'll alter it a little to fit my personal Faith:

I believe in one God, the Father Almighty, Maker of all things visible and invisible, regardless of what Name you wish to put on Him/Her.

And in one Lord Jesus Christ, the Son of God, begotten of the Father, because He is the only one who ever Claimed to be God given the form of the Human Body, Light of Light, True God of True God, begotten, not made, being of one substance with the Father;
By whom all things were made on every Quantum of this Multiverse;
Who for us men, and for our salvation, came to our Quantum and was incarnate and was made man;
He suffered, and the third day he rose again, ascended into the higher Quantum we call Heaven;
From thence he shall come to judge the quick and the dead.

And in the Holy Spirit.

I respect the other religions and I do not worship their lower-case g gods, but I acknowledge the truth of those Faiths, that those entities, some of them benign and some not, that they actually have the power given to them by the Same Father I worship.

So mostly I try to respect the Faiths other people have, when I was a teenager, it was "All Christian or Nothing" and I would cram Bible down people's throats with a cramming stick. I still use the Bible for my own reference, but now I do not discard other writings, including the several thousand Tomes of Krishna, or all of the Hebrew canon including the Kaballa.

I try to keep all of these things on a level playing field, but mostly, people searching for God usually have several things in common, their Worship follows the same format. God is not a God of strict formats, he can be Worshipped in all kinds of ways, whereas I originally thought I had to do it only one way. But in my investigations into other worship practices, we find that there are some forms that are common, I believe that this happens naturally, no one religion is copying the forms of another, intimate Worship especially in the form of Music, if you listen to recordings you will find that what you think is Christian Worship, may be another Faith.

The great Christian Apologist CS Lewis makes a statement in his last Narnia book "The Last Battle" where a person who thought they were Worshipping one god in that book, was so sincere in his Faith that Aslan[God] accounted this person's worship of that god as Worship of Him. Even in the earlier books, Aslan, the Christ figure, states "I have other names on other worlds". This can be seen as Lewis embracing the idea of Multiple Universes, some of which exist in the same space as ours. Lewis created a fictional means for people from this world to visit those worlds - "The Wood Between the Worlds" in "The Magician's Nephew". Other Cosmologists like Tipler and Hawking have only recently come up with these ideas, but as you see Lewis had some inkling of these ideas, even though they had not been formulated by the cosmologists of his day.

But there are other commonalities between people of different Faiths: And I have to make a side-note here, if a Faith does NOT have common elements to other Faiths, for instance- if a basic tenet of a faith is the word "Infidel" - Meaning, that people of other Faiths are not acceptable - Then the word APOSTATE can be applied to that Religion. This is the difference between a true FAITH and a "Religion" - A Religion is basically a set of rules, but if those rules exclude other religions, then it is an Apostate Religion. But Normally, people of different Faiths can get along quite well with each other, if they are TRUE Faiths.

A person on a spiritual quest just does not get angry at every given moment, not including regular anger which is normal, and which is desigined to Dissipate after being expressed - A person on a Spiritual Quest, does not get Angry and KEEP ON Getting angry about the same issue - Meaning, they do not "Stew on it" - Normal Anger is LET GO and the issue surrounding that anger is normally NEVER MENTIONED AGAIN, not after being dealt with ONCE. If that person KEEPS BRINGING IT Up, the issue being worse and worse each time they bring it up, then they are not allowing that anger to be released and "LET GO". A person on a spiritual quest is NOT easily irritated. Spirituality is not the seeking of spiritual experiences, true spirituality means you put yourself OUT. It means, that your +self+ is not the most important thing in your life, it means that your preferences and comforts are to be set to one side, this is the only way it works. Spirituality and Selfishness do not combine, Spirituality and SelfLESSness is the basic rule. Spirituality means inviting personal DISCOMFORT into your well-ordered existence. It does not mean you PAY MONEY to go to religious conferences, bible studies, kurton meetings, AA Groups, Amazon Tribal Rituals or even Yoga sessions or other alternate forms of meditation, just for the exhilaration of those experiences, although it is not wrong to search out those experiences... But Spirituality is more than religious *Experiences*, Spirituality requires that you absolutely DO NOT insist on your own way all the time, it means that sometimes, you have to do something the way SOMEONE ELSE wants to do it. Eh? A Spiritually motivated person has attributes that are the same as another persons attributes, regardless of which Faith they embrace. The Bible calls this the Fruit of the Spirit, which is called in Hebrews 11 the "Evidence of Things Not Seen".

To make special effort to SEEK OUT spiritual experiences in the form of these paid conferences, is a form of Lack of Faith. It is not wrong to GO to these things, but it is wrong for that to be the only source of Spiritual Input. Because a true epiphany can happen while shopping, or getting gas, it can happen when you are alone, or if you are in a crowded room of people. And, these esperinces are for the most part UNEXPECTED. You just never know when the hammer will fall down and then you are speaking in toungues or maybe even seeing a vision.

Of all the gifts, toungues is probably the cheapest and most common gift, and even that can fall on you at any time. It says in 1 Corinthians 14, if a person really wants to have a gift, then to ask for Prophecy, which is the ability to speak out the Word of God, which usually results in something coming into being, and not about seeing the future. A Prophet Calls Forth the Future, makes it happen, does not actually FORSEE it. So I'd rather have that than any other gift, and it is wholly uncontrollable, it happens when it happens.

You can't just go out and "Buy" the gift of Prophecy, there was this magician in the book of Acts, who tried to BUY the gift of healing from Peter, and that guy got a pretty good rebuking for asking. Because Faith is, and this is the best part of Faith: FREE. Faith does have it's costs and consequences, but Money os not one of the costs of Faith. Any person running around from conference to seminar to conference, is a Fake.

But I am not trying to state that *my* Spiritual Status is perfect - Far From it - The Spiritual Quest is a search for perfection, we never achieve it on the planet Earth, only when we stand in the presence of God will we achieve that state, But on Earth, we try to do simply the best we can witt eh limited tools we got..

I know a person, who has a fairly defined gift of Healing, but due to some of the things I mention above, they can impart that gift, sometimes, but usually only when they WANT to, but they cannot accept it for themselves. I think this is the source of their constant ANGER. If they could let that go, they would be a lot more effective. A healer absolutely has the ability to impart Healing to themselves. But they never look for this ability, they tru to buy it for themselves, and I never saw any improvement... Unless I was just being told lies abd excuses: Because I've been around healings for over 12 years now, and I've seen some incredible recoveries and drastic changes. But this person, can cause a drastic healing in someone else, but their state never changes. So, if in fact they had been given healing, then the infirmity which was always given to me as an excuse, if n fact it had been dealt with, the person continued to say they HAD this infirmity asa a "way out" - In other words, as a Lie.

Any person can learn the language of religion and use all the coined phrases used by people pf true Faith which they use as Shorthand for each other, but if they are not living these things they say inside themselves day by day, minute by minute, then they are FAKE. Which is harsh, but this is not me saying it, that's how it is - I didn't just make up these rules, they existed before I was born.

A person on a spiritual quest, pretty much does not INSULT their friends. Maybe they insult other people, but to do crap to a FRIEND: To say mean crap to a FRIEND and especially a person who has shared intimacy with them: is not evidence of any kind of spirtuality... Not of the good kind, there is dark spirituality, but I have NO interest in any of that. And if anyone saying they have Faith goes after dark crap, that's not Faith.

CS Lewis also said, "The two mistakes people make about devils is first, to NOT believe in them, second, to give them ANY more attention then they deserve." And this is my basic philosophy as well, when it comes to devilsor any other evil entity fron ANY Faith, I'm not interested.

Which brings me to my favourite story about Martin Luther:

Upon being awoken at night by the devil, the great Martin Luther saw who it was and said "Oh, it's just YOU" - And proceeded to go back to sleep.

5-17-2011

On Promises and the Keeping Thereof

I've been diddling with this Blog for the last couple of weeks, just have to add a few more things to it. First off, I am NOT using my Facebook account at the moment, not for the last month or so - I have not read anything in my inbox, I'm just not there. I don't think any of you lunkheads and jagoffs have gotten it - I HAVE NOT SPENT ONE MINUTE ON MY FACEBOOK PROFILE PAGE IN OVER A MONTH. Ergo I HAVE NOT READ anything that anybody has posted there, cos it ain't fuckin time for me to listen to excuses and "reasons" and rationalisations anymore, it's time to me to speak, and for certain people to listen without any FUCKING retorts - This goes out to one in particular, I WILL not listen to any more lame excuses ever again- Meaning I will not HEAR them vocally and I will not READ them. I do not know any of the "Sergio Aragones" Drawn-Out FacePoop Dramas that are going on at this time. I was using FB for communication, but it was turning into something else... So I'm out of there, I don't know if anyone's noticed I'm not there, it's just too much crap to deal with at the moment, I got the Social Spit website and my one email address and that's it for the moment.. So if you try to contact me on Facebook, I will not see it. Look for me, maybe in a year. So if you wanna email me, do it from the CONTACT link on the [url]http://socialspit.com[/url] website, I left that open for Emergencies and Business, if you got business I am interested but I don't wanna hear any gossip. Also I was told that what I posted here was "innaccurate" or one sided. Innaccurate, no, one sided yes, cos it's MY TURN and once people understand that "what they want is the exact and ONLY way something will go" is actually ABSOLUTELY NOT the way a thing should go, then bombs will stop dropping in the world. But until then, certain people need to understand that they can't eel and skink and lie and manipulate themselves out of promises and commitments- And get away with it scott free.

People who know me, know this about me: I do not ever say I am going to do something, and not do it... If it takes me a year, I'll accomplish what I've said I am going to do. If I do not think I can do the thing, I never commit to do it. If it is within my power to do a thing and I have promised to do it, even if I do not want to do the thing later, I am honour and duty BOUND to fulfill my verbal and written promises. And the least I can expect is that the people I deal with, have the same set of standards when it comes to giving their word, that's all I ask. Because My Word is the only valid coin I can offer.

So, I know there are probably more than a few of you that have directly benefited from me in this way: I Promised something, and I DELIVERED it. Usually this is in the form of Fixing a computer, because this is my one area of extreme expertise. There are quite a few of you that have directly benefited from me this way- And everything I said I was able to do, I DID. Including finding some very hard to find music for someone - I SAID I would do it and I DID do it.

On the other hand, I was in a close relationship over the last 7 or so months, and this person, I don't know what they wanted: An Obligation was formed, I carried out MY part of it, but what was supposed to be reciprocal, ended up just being me using up my energy on someone who was not interested in anything but what accommodated THEM. So I'm FUCKIN out of Facebook for a while, and it's gonna be a very long time before I trust ANYone ever again.

I hafta add this little thing - I appreciate gifts, I mean when people just do things for me, I cannot ever repay any of that, I want to, sometimes I can. But what happened last winter, someone used up resources on me, someone like me, in the same fiscal and medical situation as I was - if I would have known then what I do now about them I WOULD NOT have accepted any of it. This "generosity" was used against me later by the same person. If you give, you give without reservation, and you do NOT hold the person you did things for accountable back to you. So I was done some BIG favours, and in a moment of Vino, the person told me that they very much resented me because they used those resources up on me and moreover, I took their gift. The word "WRONG" is splattered all over that event, if I give, I give, and that's that - and I do give all the time, I always do what I can, what I am able to do. I never expect anything, and I'll make it clear I'm just doing it, mostly because I enjoy the feeling of doing something for someone. "It is more blessed to give that to recieve" - Feh! Whoever made that up did not have a clue, because recieving is as important:

Lu 6:38 Give, and it shall be given unto you; good measure, pressed down, and shaken together, and running over, shall men give into your bosom. For with the same measure that ye mete withal it shall be measured to you again.

And this one is Cake:

2Co 9:6 ¶ But this I say, He which soweth sparingly shall reap also sparingly; and he which soweth bountifully shall reap also bountifully.
2Co 9:7 Every man according as he purposeth in his heart, so let him give; not grudgingly, or of necessity: for God loveth a cheerful giver.
2Co 9:8 And God is able to make all grace abound toward you; that ye, always having all sufficiency in all things, may abound to every good work:

And so I found out that I had been given a gift with a grudge.

This is how I spent about 200 man hours on a project for the same person, I did it cos I liked doing it, because I liked the person I was doing it for, maybe because I thought I loved them and I thought those feelings were reciprocated. I never wanted anything for it, but I did get a reward: I was promised a night with Lingerie, instead I got a swift kick in the ass. I never did the work cos I WANTED that night with Lingerie, but it would have been nice if the person who Promised that to me, stuck with the bargain. But it was easier for them to just kick me in the balls, so fuck it, fuck me, I'm done. Maybe Marylin Monroe had it right:

I'm through with love
I'll never fall again
Said adieu to love
Don't ever call again
For I must love you or no one
And so I'm through with love

I've locked my heart
I'll keep my feelings there
I've stocked my heart
with icy, frigid air
And I mean to care for no one
Because I'm through with love

Why did you lead me
To think you could care?
You didn't need me
For you had your share
of slaves around you
To hound you and swear
with deep emotion and devotion to you

Goodbye to spring and all it meant to me
It can never bring the thing that used to be
For I must have you or no one
And so I'm through with love

I'm through with love

Baby I'm through with love

I guess the general rule, to be a popular person, you have to make several verbal commitments a day to do various things, and flake/RENEG on every single one of them. So maybe I'll start doing that too. But no, this is not in my nature. So it is basically, I SAID I was out of Facebook for a while, and I'm TOTALLY out of it, but I'm not invisible, I got this stupid Blog.